No.
I hate this.
I really hate this.
I don't understand this.
Nothing is quite right.
I hate Valentine's day.
No matter how much I plan,
How much I try,
I still
FUCK. IT. UP.
Messed up.
Completely.
Wake up late? Yup.
That's what I did.
Dawdle too much? Yup.
I really did.
I'm just so over it.
Over this day.
Over this year.
Over everything.
If I make it through the next week,
It will be a huge milestone,
But I don't know.
I've been on 4 different medications
In the last year.
I want to be better.
And I want to be off this damn medication.
I want to be normal.
But that's impossible.
Not after this last year.
Fuck this last year.
I'm done.
Just done.
I just can't keep doing it.
I need more help.
But how do I do that,
When everyone thinks I'm better?
How do I ask for more help,
When my parents have dropped
Over $1,000 on me in the last year
To get me help?
It just isn't fair to everyone
That I need everything
And take everything away
From everyone else.
I don't know what to do.
And I don't care.
Or want to care.
Or need to care.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Friday, February 1, 2013
Stretching Your Dollar and Reaching Pro Status
Last weekend,
Me and my best friend hung out.
Normal, right?
Nope.
We went shopping.
And had dinner.
And two snacks.
And we only spent 44 dollars.
We were gone from 5 to midnight.
Here's the breakdown.
(prices aren't all correct, but estimations. I ended up with around 13 extra dollars, but I don't know the price of some items, so things won't come out perfectly.)
2 dinners at Steak 'N Shake ($15)
5 Incense sticks ($1.22)
1 Incense burner ($2)
1 Speedway Fountain Drink ($1)
1 Water bottle ($1.39)
1 Cinnasticks from Cinnabon ($?)
1 Cinnabon fountain drink ($?)
2 pairs of matching undies ($2.39 each)
1 Fancy Water ($?)
1 Hot Chocolate ($1.39)
1 Cheeseburger ($1)
1 Large Fry ($1.38)
1 Lottery Scratch off ($1)
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I don't know about you, but this seems really successful, seeing as how we each started with around 20 dollars each when it came to going out.
And I must say, if I could do it all again,
I totally would.(:
Me and my best friend hung out.
Normal, right?
Nope.
We went shopping.
And had dinner.
And two snacks.
And we only spent 44 dollars.
We were gone from 5 to midnight.
Here's the breakdown.
(prices aren't all correct, but estimations. I ended up with around 13 extra dollars, but I don't know the price of some items, so things won't come out perfectly.)
2 dinners at Steak 'N Shake ($15)
5 Incense sticks ($1.22)
1 Incense burner ($2)
1 Speedway Fountain Drink ($1)
1 Water bottle ($1.39)
1 Cinnasticks from Cinnabon ($?)
1 Cinnabon fountain drink ($?)
2 pairs of matching undies ($2.39 each)
1 Fancy Water ($?)
1 Hot Chocolate ($1.39)
1 Cheeseburger ($1)
1 Large Fry ($1.38)
1 Lottery Scratch off ($1)
-----------------------------------------------------------
I don't know about you, but this seems really successful, seeing as how we each started with around 20 dollars each when it came to going out.
And I must say, if I could do it all again,
I totally would.(:
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